Thursday, August 9, 2007

Dreaming

While Tina is busy dreaming of Siena, I'm dreaming of Positano. I've gone back there four out of the past six nights. Three of the dreams have been pretty much the same, and they leave me feeling completely unsettled when I wake up.



It's my last night in Positano, when suddenly I realize I haven't done most of the things I wanted to do. I panic. I cry.


In one dream, I was talking to one of my friends who lives there, and I said, "I didn't get to..." (I can't remember what it was, but that doesn't matter). He said, "It's okay, we'll do that on Sunday." I cried, "No! We can't! I'm leaving tomorrow!!!!!" He looked at me, completely bewildered that I was so upset.


In another dream, it dawned on me that I hadn't spent any time with the friends who had traveled with me. We had all spent our time doing our own thing, and now it was too late to spend more than one day/night with each other. We wouldn't see each other again for a long year.


The details of the third dream are fuzzy, but it was the same concept - having to leave when I wasn't ready.


I can't quite picture being able to leave Positano and feel "ready" to leave. But I don't like the idea that there are so many things I want to experience there that they have invaded my subconscious mind.


Carole described it best a while back: "I feel as if I left things unfinished, in process, in suspense... "


I need to be there. I long for it.






People tell me, "Oh, you were just on vacation, that's why you're so happy there." NO. That's not it. There's so much more to it.


I'm progressing slowly on my new career. I need to step that up, so I can have more free time. Time to travel. To be where my soul needs to be...

9 comments:

Tina said...

Oh I hated when people would say that to me... When I finally up and moved there, though it was only for half a year, they realized I was serious - and when they saw how much I'd accomplished, they never said a discouraging word again.

Those dreams are pretty powerful. It sounds like there is something you're supposed to do there, someone you're supposed to see... When is the next time you go?

jessica said...

kathy: you are getting such strong messages of being in positano. something is definitely calling you there.

Carole D. said...

Kathy,
how sweet that you remembered what I said. So true, that feeling still lingers on and if I was alone with no ties or obligations, I would travel there every year. I have so much catching up to do.

Unfortunately, I haven't had any dreams that I can share with you.

Tell us a little more about your new career change.

Buon weekend!

Confessions of Cleopantha said...

Hey Kathy,
l had one of those Positano dreams two nights ago. My best friend who is leaving tomorrow to live in Rome was in it.

Mine was about arriving in Positano. She went off with a local and left me. l was by myself standing outside tre sorelle. My ex (who had aged dramatically) was on a boat with a little boy talking about me. l didnt want to make contact. A couple of people saw me but l felt somewhat ignored and had no where to stay. Weird!!

l feel the same everytime l leave that many things are left incomplete. l go back only to leave even more uncompleted.

All l can be is empathetic, for once l dont know what else to say...

Kathy said...

Tina - isn't it infuriating when people say that?! I'm glad you were able to put them in their place! My next trip is planned for June. I was hoping to sneak in a quick trip in October, but I'm not sure if that's going to work out.

Jessica - I just need to figure out what the message is....what am I supposed to do there? Who am I supposed to see?

Carole - Your words hit home so much that I'll never forget them! I'll make a post soon about the career thing...there's lots to say!

Cleo - Interesting dream, I wonder what it means that you were left alone? But don't you love that your ex had aged?!

nyc/caribbean ragazza said...

My last Italia dream took place in a busy Roman post office. How boring. I have no idea why I was there standing on line. LOL.

I understand what you are saying. The second trip to Rome made it clear to me my feelings had nothing to do with being on vacation.

Farfallina - Roam 2 Rome said...

"Time to be where
my soul needs to be..."

Wow, that was pretty!

Kathy, you know where that place is! People also tell me to not get my hopes up since real life is different from a small trip... I say YEA! Better since I get to LIVE there! :)

Kathy said...

NYC - aren't bills paid at the post office in Italy? Maybe you're not looking forward to that part of living there!

Farfallina - Thanks! Yes, real life is different than a short trip, and YOU get to experience it - YAY!

jessica said...

i'm not sure if we can get all that information beforehand...probably it would all unwind when you get there. of course doing lots of networking beforehand is good.

Jessica - I just need to figure out what the message is....what am I supposed to do there? Who am I supposed to see?